The Drop Out

A day ago, a friend of mine sent me a link to Steve Jobs' 2003 commencement speech at Stanford. Steve Jobs talked about how he dropped out of college and that allowed him to drop in on other subjects in college.

Very recently, I finally resigned after 4 years at an ad agency. So I am sort of a Drop Out too.

I like the idea that because I have dropped out, it allows me to drop in on other things. Tonight for example, I found time to drop in on writing a blog. Writing a blog that is open to everyone to see (while being completely unknown) is like walking around naked in a house on the top of a cliff, that has big glass windows.

4 years is a long time to be at a job. Recently, I find myself thinking a lot about the past and I just can't seem to remember how I became so old! How did I become a middle-aged woman?! It is beginning to feel like I dropped out, of life, for the past 4 years.

Funny considering that the year I remembered the most was when I was 23 and hit with the phantom social disease called quarter life crisis (which I feel are only inflicted on over-privileged kids such as myself in the developed world). I remembered spending the big part of that year searching for something, trying to fill a void, find an identity. Looking back and connecting the dots, if I hadn't hit a brick wall, I wouldn't have entered advertising and stayed in this industry for a decade. While I still have not found what I want to do, I feel that it is time perhaps for the search to begin once more, 12 years later. I just have to believe that the dots will all connect, looking back.

Starting with a small project right here. I will be blogging about the various things I will be dropping in on and will try to connect the dots looking back.